Yesterday was such a weird day - I awoke so weepy and for most of the day just kept leaking - when you take time to think about all the things you are truly thankful for it is quite amazing what comes out. And the more I thought about things the more I cried. More than anything I had the hugest realisation yesterday that I am no longer independent.... I am totally wholly and lovingly dependent on my darling wife. I actually do not think I could make it through a day without her - when did it happen - this dependence on my mate, I thought I was hardened to so much and wow it sure did take me by surprise. But to be honest I have to admit I love it, I love sharing my life with someone who shares my passions, dreams and goals, I love the equality and more than anything I love the fun we have. The way we laugh or cringe at the same things, the way we do things in sync without realising - I just dont know when it happened - but yesterday I saw it and was so incredibly grateful for it. I am grateful for my health - OK I have a cough and asthma presently and feel like crap but one of my friends recently had a hert attack and another is undergoing treatment for breast cancer. My cough/asthma feels like a pimple in comparison. Minor irritation.
Anyway we had all the kids and our darling Frankie over and also some very dear friends. They of course asked what they could bring and I said nothing - just prepare something to share with us about what you are thankful for this year. And this is the beauty and essence of thanksgiving - we all found it uncomfortable, difficult and reluctant to share - some people really had to think, others like Jona just rattled off so much (bless him and his new words - latest - queff LMAO - fanny fart - http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=queff). It just makes you think - it would have been so much easier to buy something to bring - like ice cream and cream - but to actually sit and talk about what is real and good and deserving of thanks is so hard - and it costs nothing.
I have a lot of love, I also have a lot of righteouds anger (as well as normal anger) and I also have a lot of forgiveness. I therefore disagree with the last thing said to me by someone dear - quote 'you have become one nasty little person for one who keeps telling me how loving and good she is' unquote.....
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The Jews quarreled among themselves, saying, “How can this man give us his Flesh to eat?” Jesus said to them, “Amen, amen, I say to you, unless you eat the Flesh of the Son of Man and drink his Blood, you do not have life within you.
ReplyDeleteWhoever eats my Flesh and drinks my Blood has eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day.
For my Flesh is true food, and my Blood is true drink.
Whoever eats my Flesh and drinks my Blood remains in me and I in him.
Just as the living Father sent me and I have life because of the Father, so also the one who feeds on me will have life because of me.
This is the bread that came down from heaven.
Unlike your ancestors who ate and still died, whoever eats this bread will live forever.”
These things he said while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum. (John 6:52-59)