Day 6 in the Big Sista House

Well yesterday continued to try our patience as a family! Lauren ended up back the the Dr's as she was in considerable pain. Turns out she has a urine infection as well as a little tear which has gone a bit nasty. She has antibiotics and pain killers and the change overnight is quite amazing She can actually walk up the stairs :)

We still wait to hear form Norwich.

The midwife is here as I write this and she has just done a heel prick to take some of Frankies blood - he did not like that! Lauren asked me to hold him while this was being done - I thought it was because she would find it too distressing - no - she tells me it is so he wont think it is her hurting him! So will he think I am the one who hurt him? I just told him it was aunty horrible.

He is about to be weighed so by the end of this blog I should be able to report how he is doing.

Frankies little herna looks quiet today - but it does tend to go up and down, I look at it sometimes and think yay its gone, then it rears its ugly head again - almost taunts me really. I wish it was not there - like it was a dream. I dont want that little tiny bubby to have surgery. I wish I could have it for him - sounds so cliched but that is truly how I feel.

OK so he has been weighed, he as put on 10oz!!! Greedy little piglet :)

He has just pleased his gogo by weeing all over his freshly changed clothes for Mum! Welcome to motherhood Lauren xxx

Anyway there was a real break through today in the Wilson camp - thank you Dizee for hearing my wobbly heart. Carlyn said to me yesterday Weezie you have got too much love - wow - I have thought about this so much and I wonder if this is while I just seem to hurt so bad - I just love too much......

Anyway, Uncle Jona has gone to Play in the Park - I think he craves normality where there are no boobs on display and constant talks of 'lady bits' which makes him cringe and groan - ah to be 15!!

Uncle Scotty is totally besotted with Frankie - it has to be seen to be believed! He will come visit again at the week end. He has asked 'can this one be straight please' like we have a choice or say over Frankie's sexuality! Bless him. It has been special for me to see the softer side of Scott and the real emotion that is there - he always acts so controlled or cool or angry that the contrast has warmed the cockles of my heart :) I love all my kids so much and feel so fucking proud of them today.

And my darling Fi - she smiles but it does not seem to reach her eyes, tiredness? Worry? We are so out of sorts in routines and sleeping arrangements - we keep kinda missing each other and looking for each other - but we are adjusting to new roles and I suppose we just have to take the bumpy roads as well as the smooth ones. I love her so much, I would not have coped these last few days without her love and support and constant feel of her hand in mine. You are my life and my future and I am so incredible grateful for you in my life. Soon there will be time for us I promise!

Ok - shower calls, I am off to the hairdresser, I need some me pampering time to keep me balanced and levelled.

Day 5 in the Big Sista House.....

Well it was an early start, which coupled with not a lot of sleep (apparently I snore - can you cope! as if) meant I was not at my best early this morning. However Fi and I made our way to Colchester general hospital for her to have an MRI done on her knee. I did manage a quick cuddle with grandson which helped a lot to lift the mood. SO the touring of hospitals in East Anglia begins. So far we have done Ipswich Hospital (once for frankie to be born and once for Frankie to be diagnosed with a hernia) the Colchester this morning and we await our invitation to Norwich Hospital - what joy. I dont think I like this hospital rounds lifestyle - I like my home better - certainly I prefer the smell.

On our return home, after a detour to look at houses - but we will save that for another day - I was met with a bathed and dressed Frankie feeding from a bathed and dressed Mummy! It was only just after 10am so I was really impressed by this. Lauren continues to amaze me, she is in a lot of pain (my lady bits she tells me) but manages feeds and changing with ease.

Fankie was registered yesterday and today we have filled in a mound of forms for benefits and grants and all sorts of related paraphernalia. Ah the joys of the welfare state - another blog another day :)

Ok round 2 of house hunting is about to begin. I then hope to get to the gym for some body punishment - it does make you re-think that chocolate eclair!

Laters peeps